A Perfect Fit

I have this sort of weird skill...I can see angles really well, so when I have to pack things like a suitcase for example, I can usually see what's going to fit and what won't.
In the band, when we pack our equipment into Ted ( Harrison's) truck, I generally am the one who says place this amp here, or load this in like this and so on.
Recently, I came to the realization that that packing ability is alot like life in that if you don't see those angles, you'll find out in a hurry that something is gravely wrong.
When I had my band in New York, I really enjoyed playing with those folks, but had to face the fact that they just weren't motivated to do anything greater than be mediocre. It was a hard pill for me to swallow, but I had to face it; so when I did, I called them all to rehearse one Friday evening and announced that I would be moving on. To be sure there were some hurt feelings, but I had to do what was in my own interest, as this musical life is really in my heart.
In the years that I've lived here in West Virginia and have been in the Carpenter Ants, I have not only found a home, but these fellas have become my brothers ( to be cliche', we are family...yeah I had to go there!!!). So during this time that I've been away from them because of my being sick, it's been killing me.
While I've been away, we've tried to find people to take my place temporarily, and so far nothing has seemed to work. I am grateful to everyone who has tried to fill in for me, and I know that it's a really daunting task, but at the end of the day, again I had to face the fact that this is really in my heart. To the point that it's almost impossible to find someone who is as motivated as I am to make this band worthwhile, and continue to have a viable stand in our musical realm.
Much like packing that suitcase, it's a matter of finding a perfect fit. Some angles work, and some just don't .When they don't fit, then you have to make a decision to either leave the piece you need at home, and find it in your travels, or just do without it period.
It's the same way in relationships, if one part of it doesn't work, eventually none of it will. It's always hard to leave what you need (or want), but now and again at the end of the day it's what is best.
I guess what I'm really trying to say is expand your horizons large enough so that you'll always feel you have exactly what you need.
Stare at that suitcase for a good long while before you decide what to take, look at what you really need and at that point you'll find that you have a perfect fit.

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